Thread:Plant777/@comment-35465316-20180503044747

I used to feel like I was here because of my desire to fix things and make them right. That still holds true. But there's another part of me that I repressed, because of the harsh reality of it. Remembering that turned it into a catalyst to push myself forward, and is slowly becoming the real reason I want to set things right here.

I'm just going to give it straight to you:

I'm 50.47.23.232. You may know that address as the IP that ruined CattailsWelove's plans with a single comment. Because I stupidly took my opinion of Issue 12 and turned it into a rather caustic statement in '11, that comment's there for eternity.

And bam. Issue 36, down the drain in an instant. After the incident, CW's activity declined steadily, ending with the halloween art in October 2011.

For the longest time, I blamed myself for making her leave and sending this place on the highway to hell. I still don't know if that's really true. All I know is that the guilt is alleviated somewhat by the fact that I've yet to meet anyone else who would bow down to a contributer from one lousy comment (meaning she had an obnoxiously fragile ego), and the only person with the guts to take it to the old talk page system was this guy, who also happened to write this lovely message.

This isn't a cry for help or forgiveness or whatever, because there's something inherently wrong about doing such a thing years after it happened in my eyes. I just want you to know why I'm here. Why someone else out of the blue would just... show up with you.

I'm here because I want to fix what I made wrong. I want this place to live again as much as you and Thymewarp want to.

We can't change the past, but its sins drive the future.

PS: If this double posts, note that Wikia is really finicky with long editing sessions, so I had to fiddle around to get it working again. 